The Therapist Cancelled Again!

My physiotherapist cancelled again! That’s 2 days in a row! The pillows and the walks aren’t helping currently and painkillers are now a no-no. Besides, they aren’t prescribed, just over the counter painkillers that aren’t really working, the pain disappears for less than an hour. How did the back aches start by the way? Initially…

Your Voice

Semblances of you pass me by Blue and shiny… My heart summersaults a couple of times. I miss you…   When days are dark and gloomy And the last thing that I want is to carry on another day, Your voice…   Breathes life into my failing lungs and weakening heart I reach out and…

Trouble sleeping

The past two nights have been particularly draining, more so last night. Probably as with everything, it will take time to heal. I am struggling with sleeping, I can’t find the most suitable position to sleep in. I am awake half the night trying to sleep. There is pain even in my dreams which much…

30 going on adolescence

So I seem to be having these introspection and questioning moments lately. Am trying to figure out if these feels and experiences are due to the imminent ’30’. I find myself realising my unhappiness. Unhappiness with the situation I think I landed myself in or the situation I am’finding’ myself in. I have the nagging…

Of course I’m fine..

Constant feelings of darkness and emptiness that I can’t seem to fill, only to realise I am depressed. Depressed with the love I lack inside, self-love. Feelings of unworthiness hang on by the shoulders. Regrets, anger and fear, I can’t seem to get out of this hole. It is much clearer now than it was…

Choosing Choice

Today someone told me that I need to seek Jesus and I wondered from where? Is he in hiding that I need to seek him out? As far as I understand about the bible, God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit are all with me as I walk, sit, make love or sleep. I was made…

Of loneliness and STI’s

Ill-conceived ideas that lesbian sex or rather lesbianism is not prone to STIs’ or HIV usually and most certainly always lands my fellow colleagues with injection needles in their butts! Yes I said it! Most lesbians are not particular about protection. They hope and believe that their lovers are faithful and would never put them…

Hours behind those walls

No one ever hopes the day will come when they’re in the firing line, guns pointed. Being an activist, I know the risks that are associated with the job especially a harsh environment like Zimbabwe. I dislike the month of March; I always go through it numb. I try not to think about it but…

Too Soon??

I usually have my ah-huh moments during a bath and today i found myself wondering who determines when love should blossom? If someone was to say i love you from the day you meet, are they lying? In a world were hurt is passed on like change, it’s only fair that one becomes skeptical or…

I won’t give up

If I could quantify it then the cliché I’ve cried a thousand rivers comes to mind. I let down my guard and every time I pay the price. Armies of emotion come in and destroy the walls I work so hard to build. Do I let them in, is it my fault? Why should I…